The World According to Tyson

First of all, I noticed that once again, it has been over a year since I last wrote. Where the hell does the time go? It is 2020, so I'll tell you where it went - right down the crapper! I don't know why I am so inconsistent with writing in my blog. I mean, I know I'm super busy, but writing in my blog is so therapeutic to me; one would think I'd make it more of a priority, especially when I'm just barely keeping it together and thus, need all the therapy I can get. I did discover that I started a post back in April about being in this together, but obviously, that never came to fruition. Perhaps I will come back to it someday. Nonetheless, here I am with another ramble. A few years ago, at work, my boss said something interesting to me. She said "Tyson, your niceness is rubbing off on me! A few months ago, I would've fired [this person] on the spot without thinking twice about it. Now, I want to give him another chance." While, on the surface, she mea...

I type this up as I am just coming to the realization that it has been over a year since my last post. I can't believe it has been that long! This post was intended to be about how we always look to something in the future, never the moment right in front of us. But as it hits me how much time has really gone by since I last wrote something up here and what has transpired, I find myself looking back, not forward, and still, not necessarily at the present moment. For the longest time, I thought that something was wrong with me because I couldn't ever focus on the here and now. But, in talking with other people, it has been revealed that, while there are indeed things wrong with me, the fact that I fail to "live in the present" is not at all unique to me. So, why do so many of us fail to really live in the moment? Perhaps you've heard of the term "mindfulness." Essentially it is about being in a full state of awareness. So, as the name would suggest, ...

First, I'd like to thank everyone who has added to my discussion on Facebook regarding feeling homesick while one is already "at home." While I didn't get responses from as many people as I was hoping and expecting, the quality of the responses I got was astounding. And I'll take quality over quantity. This is something I've been thinking a lot about for the past few weeks since I first read someone asking if it is possible to feel homesick when one is at home. This question has really stuck with me, especially because it kind of put to words what I have been feeling for quite a while. We bought our current house in November 2009. So, one would think that after having been here for almost 8 years to the day, I'd feel at home. I don't. I wouldn't say I've never felt at home at all here, and I'm not sure if this feeling has just come up as of late since life as I knew it (and marriage and family life as I knew it) is now gone. Perhaps I ha...

This post is one that I have felt needed to be written for a long time. But I have avoided writing it for a number of reasons. I won't go into the why nots, but I will go into the reasons I feel like it needed to be written. To start the "whys," I will explain why I write a blog. There are 2 main reasons I blog, the first is rather selfish - it is therapeutic to me. I can't explain how or why, but it is. The second reason is really 2 fold - 1) it may help others by reading it 2) it may help others to help me. This will likely be a longer post that usual. You've been warned. It may seem to odd to people that someone who is has been happily married for almost 10 years and has a child could ever feel lonely. Perhaps someone reading this is currently or has gone through a similar situation where they have a chronically, seriously ill spouse. If you are or have been in that situation and never felt lonely, I commend you and ask for your secret. If you are someone wh...

Sometimes I hear a song that just totally gets me. Today it is "For What it's Worth" by one Liam Gallagher. It's not a cover of the Buffalo Springfield song and isn't about Vietnam. It is an apology to his fans, which all you fellow 90s Alternative fans will understand considering the volatile nature of the band Oasis, mostly due to conflict between the Gallagher brothers, Noel and Liam. I'll post the video below, but some words that really hit home with me are: "In my defense, all my intentions were good. And Heaven owns a place somewhere for the misunderstood. You know I'd give you blood if it'd be enough" "For what it's worth I'm sorry for the hurt. I'll be the first to say I made my own mistakes." "Sometimes we lose our way." I feel like I've lost my way. I'm not the person I was back in Middle School, or High School, or the mission, or college....  Heck, I'm not the pers...

This is my first blog entry since February 2016. And what a lot has happened since then! I can't believe it has been that long. I kept meaning to make a new entry but life got the best of me. I had a lot to say and still do. Sometimes I just have a hard time putting it down. And I fear that as I start to type, I will change the subject over and over just like I do when speaking to people. Anyone who grew up with me, especially those of us in Deseret remember me being told by one of my church leaders that I have the attention span of a hummingbird. It's kindof an interesting phenomenon because when I talk, I can sometimes jump from topic to topic, with or without any sort of connection; but yet I did relatively well in school. They actually at one time thought that I may have some form of attention deficit, but when they realized I graduated Valedictorian (in college - I was far from that in high school), they said it isn't very likely I have a hard time paying attention. I...

Well, despite my best efforts to be active in updating my blog, I just discovered that is has been almost a year since my last post. Is it because I've been too busy? Sure, I could say that. Life does keep me pretty busy. But as I'm back to not sleeping real well, I'm up late enough and thus, theoretically have plenty of time. So, what is the real reason I haven't "blogged" as of late? Simply, I've been too lazy. To make it just a tad more complex than that, it's actually I haven't been sure what to write or how to start. I have lots of ideas that pop into my head all the time and I actually think it would be a good thing to blog about. But, here we are... I feel like my mind is always racing and I am trying to figure things out. Maybe I'm a tad analytical. Maybe I just can't focus. Who knows. But the fact remains that I have a lot to say. And to be honest, for years people have thought I just say whatever is on my mind. To an extent t...