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Depression & Suicide

I like to consider myself a comedian or comic of sorts. And someday, I will have some blog posts most focused on that direction. But right now, I'm still trying to state the many things on my mind into words. I don't want anyone to think that my blog is all "doom and gloom" or that it just brings people down. I want it to uplift. And sometimes, it order to that, we need to be blunt and talk about the proverbial "elephant in the room." Then, once it is out in the open, we can begin dialogue in which we can uplift one another.

I also don't want anyone to think I am any sort of "authority" on these topics. I am simply stating my feelings from my life experiences and experiences that others around me have shared. With that in mind, I hope you understand where I am coming from and that I am not a Psychologist or any sort of expert.

After some comments I received personally from my post on depression, I feel the need to address a related, but completely separate topic: suicide. This is definitely not my favorite subject to talk about as I have see many friends and family get hurt due to this. I am struggling to write this, but I think it is important enough that I want to share with all who care to read it.

Some people might think that everyone who is depressed is also suicidal. Or people may think that if they don't have feelings of suicide, then what they are feeling bust not actually be depression, but perhaps something else. I just want to say that neither of those are necessarily the case. Once I actually sought help and it was discovered that I did indeed have clinical depression, I realized that I have suffered from it for a long time. But throughout that entire time, I don't recall really feeling suicidal. And the fact that a lot of medications have potential side effects of suicidal thoughts was another reason I was really hesitant to take medication for my mental depression.

In my life I have heard comments made about people who commit suicide as being completely selfish and not caring at all about how their actions affect those around them who love them. While they may in part be true (or may not), the important thing to remember is that those who have really considered, attempted, or committed suicide are not thinking clearly. People need to understand that this is a condition just as serious as some physical conditions. I don't think someone who could do that can be held completely responsible. Obviously, I am not condoning such an act, but merely stating that we need to always remember that we have no idea what others are going through and someone with suicidal tendencies may really not have the capacity to handle what they are going through and really need help.

If anyone reading this has ever had those thoughts, or if you no one who has, please seek the proper help! Suicide is not the answer. It creates more problems which you just remove yourself from having to deal with. Just like you wouldn't live with a deadly disease if you didn't have to, you also don't have to live with depression or thoughts of suicide. There is help and there are many around you who love you and want to help (even if you don't feel like anyone loves you or cares). No one knows exactly what I am going through, just like no one knows exactly what you are going through. Let's instead of judging or creating prejudice about people with these conditions, let's look for ways to help one another.

If you ever feel like you need help, or even just someone to listen, please go here, or if I personally know you, please contact me directly. Whatever it takes! Another great resource is


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